Nightly thoughts

As I lay on the bed that night my mind just wondered.
There seems to be so much going on in life deterred.
I have so many friends online, so why do I feel alone.
I am so cheerful out there, so why do tears come home.

The darkness seems so deep, the light is so shallow.
For I hear the clock as it ticks those seconds so slow.
I enjoyed the food I made, yet my heart feels so bad.
I have seen happier days, so why are thoughts so sad.