Tuesday, July 28, 2015

Till death do us apart

It may have been a few years now from the incident that changed our relationship forever. For today is not my death anniversary. You may think this day to be the day that I told you I had died, but in truth I should have died a long time before that. I had died the very moment that you told me, you did not love me anymore. It was that moment on that is the love was a word that filled my heart with hatred instead of joy. I had a very simple life before you came in it. I had nothing to live for but my own dreams and desires. You decided to arrive in my life and complicate everything up for me. I had not yet contemplate the level of relationship between us until the day you said you liked me. You may chosen to but did not stop there. Within a gap of few days, it was not just a simple like anymore but love.

The love I had expected but was still so unexpected in my life. My entire life and lifestyle took a ride on a roller-coaster that would change it forever. I was no longer the carefree person whose mind wandered the corridors of endless imagination. I had become that strangely practical person whose life had started to mean something. I did nothing but think about you and our future together in any and all my spare time. I was not just randomly dreamy anymore as now I had the anchor holding me down. The anchor that told me that I cared a lot about you and I need to start working on my dreams of a life together.

I remember that call I made before leaving. The special way you made the sound of "don't go" that touched my heart. To be truthful the echo of it still rings in my ears to this day. There were so many emotions in that sound, that it still creates doubts in my mind about my decision to go. Yet I had to go for it was for our future together that I was giving away a part of our present.

No decision have I ever rued more than that decision. It was that decision that forced me to die and it was that decision that ultimately led to us break up.

Dedicated to Scar and Hunter